I know it’s only been about three days but i got impatient and plus if anyone has anyother questions i can always make another video.

So here is my very first Answers video, thank you to all who asked and i hope you enjoy…and can hear it (there are one or two sound dips)

Okay i’ve finally weakened, if anyones interested ask me a question and i’ll do one of the ever popular responce videos….although it’s going to be more of an AudioLog slideshow rather than a video due to poor camera quality.

But still if you want to know something about me, and feel free to ask anything i’m happy to answer…and if i’m not then i just won’t lol

I was also intending to post some pics of me with the starts of a rather Edward Norten-esque Gotee…but sadly due to steam my damn camera lens was fuzzy and the shots didn’t work and since i’ve shaved now it might be a while before i can take more. (it’s a pretty good excuse this camera thing lol)

Anyway, errrm i suppose thats it, I can’t really say i have any specific knowledge or talent you could ask about but if you can come up with some random or interesting questions it would be fun to answer them

A few posts recently have gotten me thinking about prayer.

And often it seems like prayer is reserved only for those in a religion or it’s somehow something special that requires secret knowledge to do right, there’s even question as to whether different cultures even pray but it’s beginning to dawn on me that really prayer is something much more universal that religions have just labelled and created rules for.

I’ve got nothing against religion, I personally have never been able to go along with organised religious belief but I don’t judge those that do. But with regards to prayer I don’t think it should be thought of as limited to religious prayer only because prayer is just another expression of an inbuilt human condition, the feeling that due to the limitations of our senses we can never be sure of the world around us, there’s always going to be an unknown, a question, a limit to our perception.

And because of this when things become dangerous or we experience loss or fear we turn to Hope and hope allows us to externalise the unknowable lets us accept our limitations but still feel as though we can affect a change, and this Hope has been interpreted in many ways, we Wish, we Pray, we think positively and visualise.

But in the end it all looks like the same process, an attempt to understand the un perceivable.
I am of course not saying that because it’s a similar root that all the different ways to ‘pray’ are pointless or just made up, personally I think each has it’s value and changes the effect on the person and possibly the effect on reality, but it’s just interesting to think how easy it is to build a myth around something like ‘prayer’ and box it off in your mind as something only religious people do and then turn around and hope for a nice day tomorrow, or blow out candles and make a wish.   

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Time for something a little more jolly than all my various illnesses.

So Facial hair, or more accurately a moustache.
I’ve never been very good at growing a beard it doesn’t really seem to grow all in one piece which is never a good look, but I can grow a moustache and gotee the question is should I?

Personally I really like moustaches, I have a bit of a 1920’s 30’s fashion thing and tend to be drawn to that sort of style and a moustache always looks good with that look.
But there are draw backs, due to my face and dress sense there are times when I can resemble a certain famous fascist leader which is never a comforting sight, also there’s generally not a very good reputation of the moustached with many sit-coms and the like characterising them rather harshly.
And the final and most telling argument against is that most people said I looked much better without my tash, but really I don’t want other people to control how I dress or appear because I love clothes and playing around with appearance and as long as I can ignore embarrassment prefer to just wear and do what I want and forget others, and I do like moustaches.

But still I’m not sure so what do your think? Should I go for what I want and look a bit more strange? Or should I stick with clean shaven and fit in better?

Also should I try the gotee? so far I’ve never ‘gone there’ but have been tempted if only because it’s actually the one form of beard I can grow.
Anyway opinions and input would be gratefully received.   

As a great man big Stan once said.
(If you know the film I’m referring to all I can say is I don’t know why I watched it I think they used hypnosis)

My last post was made when I’d just started to recover from a week long bout of the flu, it was a horrible week of chills fever pain and all the other really nasty things that go along with flu, but in the end I was getting back to normal…I thought.

The next few days saw me take a serious down turn and ended up with a trip to the hospital because of dehydration and I spent about 2 maybe 3 days there.
When I got back I thought I was going to start to get better again….but no in fact over the next two days I started to feel terrible pain around my shoulders and chest. After suffering with it for too long the hospital called again concered about my high white blood cell count and brought me back in, at this point on their 1 to 10 how much pain question I without hesitation was at 10 barely able to breath.

Turns out I’d gotten so run down Pneumonia had taken hold and had spread massivly throughout my lungs. I was given morphine (which hardly helped) and X-rayed and then shipped off to a larger hospital in the local area.
What followed was a week of hospital rest with lots of antibiotics and painkillers, as I struggled to breath only able to sit upright to minimise the pain and aches.

After the week I was feeling a bit better and had much les pain, and thankfully was allowed to go home. Although the hospital staff had been amazing the time spent doing nothing suffering staring at beige walls had taken it’s toll mentally.

So now I’ve been back for maybe three days and am getting better each day (other wise I’d call the hospital again) I’m still on antibiotics still have pain and am very week and really quite depressed.

So that’s my news and why I’ve been absent and will be for a while. Also I’d really like to stress if you get run down badly by illness give your body time to recover,
I’m young relatively fit and eat well, I don’t smoke and I’ve not been known to have chest problems but I must have been so drained by the Flu that I was hit really bad by the Pneumonia, all the doctors who saw my X-ray were seriously worried.

So take care of yourselves and remember ‘don’t celebrate too early’.   

Okay this will be sort and a bit garble probaly because i’m still really tired and light headed.

I have been gone as some of you may have noticed for over 10 days now and five days agao (roughly) I post a pulse saying something like i was getting better from Flu…..guess what? I wasn’t! that as just a short lull before i got all overheated and dehydrated and basically spent three days either cooking myself or shivvering on a couch, eventually i went to hospital and have just come back from two days and nights there, which has sort of helped get me back to the ‘getting’ better point i’m still really weak and won’t be on all that much i doubt as i recover and try to get a hold on all the rest of my life that had to stop, but i Really appreciate some of the kind things and wishes that have been sent my way, and i really hopw to be able to catch back up a little in the comming weeks.

For now i think i’ve got to sleep