January 11, 2011
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A Mind
Sometimes I’m happy, mostly i’m content. Sometimes i’m sad, mostly i’m just lossed.
Often i really can’t tell what or why my mind is doing what it’s doing, i’ll think certian things, defend arguments and act on belifes only to later be proven wrong or suddenly discover none of what i said is true to my now current mind.
If i get drunk is feel like truth will break free and that all thats holding it back is an endless maze of silly embarresment assumption and illusion, but then when the alchohol wears off logic returns and the ‘reasons’ come with it.
For the most part i just either distract myself or don’t think about it, but when i have chance or momentary clarity it’s vaugely clear that all this mind is all i’ll ever see or live or express is layer after layer of interesting elaborately constructed character, none more real than the last.
But is that true? if none of them are real maybe that proves that the illusion is in fact the feeling of unreality and those changing faces are in fact all the ‘you’ you’ll ever be.
An interesting concept that came up in conversation with my Dad was this, taking everything down to it’s simplest form there has to be three things. For example there can be light and dark, but there must also be a context for the state of light and dark to exist in. So logically there must be three things always, Yes, No and maybe. Good, Bad and Neutral. etc.
I like the example of using a computer, say playing a Computer Game. You have this elaborate amazing world (the game) you have the player (the ‘you’) but you also have the world in which the computer and the player exist.
None of all this is my own discovery and knowledge, i’m lucky enough to have been surrounded by this sort of discussion and subject for most of my life, but I’ve also not had much experiance of other peoples lives and minds, so i’d be interested by any comments about how you see your own mind or how you feel about your sense of ‘you’
Comments (8)
I’ve had a long day today so I can’t really put down all my thoughts on this yet haha. I can say that there are times when I have out of body feelings when I’m trying to figure out my sense of “me”. It’s like I’m watching myself from a third person POV and as a first person POV at the same time. Very odd feeling.
Wow, what an abstract mind. I’ve never thought about it in terms of three things. An interesting way to look at things & i totally see where you’re coming from.
My mind is a blur, to be honest. I guess I’ll have to get back to you when I have a better understanding of myself.
Our minds are interesting and amazing. Even tho’ I’ve been a student and a teacher, I still think I use so little of my mind. I am very open minded and try to learn every day. I often joke that I have a pea-brain, but I am truly amazed by my mind and the power it holds.
As for my sense of me….I need to be more confident and nicer to me. I am still working on me. I like a lot of what I see, but I’ll continue to work on the rest.
HUGS!
@Roadlesstaken - That sounds intruging, I think i know what your saying, sort of like your aware of your body, your mind and your conciousness all at once.
@HelloKitty0809 - Yeah a lot of the time I’m just not aware of what’s going on in my thoughts, i’ll just be wrapped up in what i’m doing. But your post are often quite self analysing so you might have a better grasp of how you think than you think lol
@adamswomanlost - Now that is an exciting thought when you start to get a sense of what we could be if we martialed all our potential. And being nicer to yourself is also a good point, we often are quite harsh on ourselves when there’s really no need to be.
Hugs
(I never miss a chance for a hug)
So I insanely love this post.
I think it’s funny that you mention the dark and the light and whatever destinguishes the two. The three ultimatums. A friend of mine and I were talking about this topic probably a month ago, and specifically used the contrast of the two for basically how everything in life is. Best conversation of my life. On top of that, we had this conversation on top of a downtown bridge that we weren’t supposed to be on at 11 at night. But that’s irrelevant.
And I can completely relate to you and the confusion of your mind and what the hell you’re thinking and why, or how you even got there. And then contradicting yourself later, or even still thinking the same thing but knowing you don’t want to think it. It’s all just one big paradox.
@Kelsicus - Sounds like the perfect spot to have just such a conversation.
And Yes i often find it frustrating that nothing can be explained or logically deducted without eventually hitting a mssive paradox
@BFB1131 - It most definitely was.
Haha, I find it more than frustrating sometimes. It’s….beyond what words are capable of explaining. But life’s a moody bitch, so it must be a paradox.