January 4, 2012

  • Storms

    What to post?…hmmm damn I’ve been Xanga blocked for what seems like weeks!!

    Ah well in reality it’s been something like a couple days since I last posted :P but still I need a topic or something random and interesting, or maybe something other than SuperHeroes to create and get lovely comments about lol

    But for now I shall fall back on the only thing that will always be there for the cold damp people of the UK to talk about…the Weather.

    Over the past several weeks if not months now :( it has been dark, not Antarctic dark admittendly but close enough. Currently and over the winter months it get’s light around 9:00AM maybe 8:30 and then dark again at 4:00. this is bad enough but when you combine it with the endless storms we’ve been having and thick cloud cover (with plenty of rain) you basically end up living inside in twilight for most of winter.

    Light as my recent angel suggest is vitally important, infact there is a certain school of thought that says that ALL of the worlds religions are actually just based on us worshipping the Sun. But I don’t intend to start a thological debate I’m just using it as an example of it’s importance :P

    And accordingly when you are living without the vital rays of solar warmth you end up feeling SAD (or Seasonal Affective Disorder) yes for all you annoying people who live in sunny warm places it really does exist :/ And it’s kind of surprising how it makes you just stop wanting to live basically. I’ve not wanted to wake up, i’ve not wanted to work, to deal with people. I’ve pretty much just turned into a sullen teenager :P

    And what annoys me most is that being a big beliver in Self Help stuff and being posetive I’ve kept wanting to just ‘snap out of it’ or be more up beat…but the truth is either it’s simply an effect of chemicals in my brain or there just isn’t enough things to be jolly about for me at the moment so I’ve been for the most part unable to change my mood at all :|

    I’m still pretty sure we can change everything about us…but it’s always daunting when you are faced with something that out matches you and just leaves you powerless. On the upside though it does also give you an oppertunity for patience and self control which in it’s self can help to make you feel strong and of value, guess it all depends on how you look at it.

    Anyway if you are still with me after all that :? Recently I’ve gone into town! :) first time out of the house and local area for got to be near a month lol

    And I might be quite busy soon, there are at least two Website jobs looming, and I’ve recently bought some stuff for Internet Marketing and Online Business, which will mean LOTS more learning and with luck some profits.

    Plus on Sat I’ll be off to visit a friend and stay over :) AND I have to consider if I should head down south into England soon and help out my Uncle, not sure about that because 1: I’m busy and 2: I don’t wanna miss Xanga time :D

    So things to consider, weather to survive and cheesecake to eat ;) not all bad then :)

Comments (9)

  • Aw I’ve missed you so much but as long as you are out and having fun I’ll survive :D

  • we’ve been getting lots of freak snowstorms lately too, and although it’s a little bit of a damper on mood, it really gives you some time to just sit and reflect. of course, that could also be a little depressing but it’s the perfect time to curl up with some tea and a book :) big smiles! 

  • I am sooooo hungry for cheesecake!!!!! haha :D

  • SAD affects a lot of people.  I’m sorry you’ve been struggling with this. I hope and pray as the dreary days pass you will remember we are rooting for you and we are lifting you up in light and love! We care about you!

    The plans you have sound good! And eat a piece of cheesecake for me, would ya’?

    I meant it, recently, when I said that you are a light to me, Bede! Just the thought of you makes me smile! You bring a warm and a joy whenever you are around!

    And there is no one else in my life that I can call “Little Cakes”!

    Warm, light, healing HUGS!

  • I believe that people have more control over their moods than they think. (I tell myself that so I don’t fall into the victim trap.) Still, having depressive disorders myself, I know it’s tough. I might write something on the things that I have found to help, someday.

    Either way, I think you are a wonderful person who is very kind, and I wish you success with your career goals.

  • Cheesecake!  Where?  I want!  I want!  Gimme more.  It’s impolite to eat cheesecake alone ye know.

  • @xXxlovelylollipop - Haha Aww Thank you for missing me! :)
    I’ll be about as much as possible.

    @suuperstar - Good philosophy :D there is always something of value to be found in all situations. Thanks :)

    @Cestovatelka - Hahaha Yea well I actually have too much to eat :P but i’m sure i’ll manage.

    @AdamsWomanFell - Wow this comment alone is enough to dispell any depression I might be feeling :D
    Thank You Carolyn for being just endlessly wonderful.

    And I’m happy to report that I did see the sun today so your kind wishes must have worked ;) I’ll be sure to eat a big bit of cake just for you this evening :D <3

    @naughty_virgin - I’d be interested to read your thoughts :)
    And thank you thats very kind of you to say :D

    @RestlessButterfly - Hahaha well even though I do have too much…it’s bit too good to share :P

  • I’m glad to hear that you got to see some sunlight and go into town :) Those are always some good times :P

    Mmmhm cheesecake…and you didn’t share? how dare you? :O

  • There yet?

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