October 18, 2011
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Blink and you’ll miss it.
So many ways, so much time, so many interpretations.
It sometimes feels like if only you could find the right words or someone who could explain.
What is it that drives a poet? or artist, why are the highly creative so often so tortured by their gifts?
What do I want to say….
Hmmm it’s not in our minds, it’s just not.
We can’t go into enough detail or reason to find that feeling, that mood….it’s just not clear through that lense.
Like peace, the feeling of ‘peace’ when you’re in nature or just those seemingly random moments. What is it? describe Peace to yourself.
It’s not a state of logic or reason it just is, and perhaps something similar is that thing within art or anything really when you become aware of a things beauty, it’s perfection.
For some ‘reason’ we can’t directly access it…well I can’t…but we can come up with these elaborate ways to get close or come across it by accident.
Maybe it’s an illusion, the product of a perception designed to find patterns, to invent and explore. Maybe this is all there is, but it ‘feels’ like theres so much more…in everything.
Hmmm…..
I dreamed desperately, hoping in my loneliness for an answer, and when I forgot my reality for a moment I found it and was there in my limited haven.
But fading quiet normal stole my soaring mind and brought me home, to life and living, to thought and thinking…Please be there in your strangeness waiting, your unutterable lullaby burns my heart and draws my soul through your myriad windows and ways and shatters my mirrors on beautiful days in perfect ways to free me of my daze.
Comments (15)
What a wonderful post, so thoughtful and touching, because we all have been there, struggling to find a way. Even the most talented writers struggle with the limitations of language.
@emilyspiegler - Thanks
yea I can only imagine the better you are the more frustrating the limitations are :/
Language, like our state of perception, is a barrier between us and complete realization of what we want to understand. But that can be its greatest gift, since it drives so many to try to break through it.
Reminds me of my boyfriend’s philosophy rants. I can’t remember the name of the philosopher he talked about, but the guy says that there is no possible way we can exist as the same person in death. That is because our perception in life is based solely on what we experience through our physical bodies. A free state of consciousness can experience looking at a moving truck by looking at it, from within it, in front of it, and behind it, so you have a more complete understand of the object. Because the level of knowledge and ability is so far different from our own, it makes our living personality irrelevant. In our living form, we can only see it from the side as it moves past us, giving us only a tidbit of understanding about it. Maybe it’s better to describe that scenario if the object were a cat….But yeah, the artist sometimes struggles to understand something as if in a free state of consciousness, but can’t. o.o I’m getting off here before this rant gets any longer. Thanks for the interesting post! and if my reply doesn’t make sense, blame my boyfriend, he’s the philosopher! XD
so true.
Wow, the last paragraph is expertly crafted wordsmithing. Very well done!
I think the highly creative have trouble finding other people operating on their “wavelength.” People who can think abstractly and intelligently enough to stimulate them. Also, I’m not saying I’m THAT creative… but, my brain won’t… stop. I don’t know how else to describe it.
Peace. Tranquility. Sitting in the woods and imagining them stretching out forever overrunning the hustle and bustle of metal raging like a hurricane over pavement and people’s wrists going tick tock in designer faux peacock feather hats. Sounds like a thing of the distant past, to me.
*sigh* You know how much I can relate to this…and well i do think my limitations on writing in your language are greater than when i write in my own language…still not even in a romantic oh so large language as spanish I can find the way to express what i want…very frustrating…
I love reading you…you always inspire me so much…i don’t know how do you feel about what you write but your words really conect with some very primal feelings of mine…thank you Bede
Iv’e realized recently that i have struggled all my life with words. But thanks to the Internet now i am “we are” so fortunate to be globally able to share these struggles and sometimes limitations. I find a lot of acceptance and encouragement in these blogging sites. You are doing a great job expressing this concept.
I wish I could fancy myself an artist but even in life with my emotions run high I struggle to find the words. It’s why I write them down, as jumbled as they are. Great post!
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This is beautiful and very true. I struggle to find words, too. But, I keep trying.
You have a great way of communicating, Bede! I like reading you!
HUGS!
@tarotbutterfly - Oooo wow! thanks for the awesome comment
Thats a really nice way of explaining it, it’s like trying to picture something without time. You and Your BF should watch Mr.Nobody great film for messing with perception.
@wyrdkismet - :)
@BlindSight22 - And fine wordsmithing to you sir!
Great comment. I know what you mean about the brain not stopping, mostly I can kind of ignore it but sometimes when you get hooked on a concept it can be hard to disengage.
My creativity seems to be based on random inspiration, so if i’m in the right mood it flows good…most of the time though it’s just avarage, I always like it when you are surprised by what you’ve made/written as if it was done by someone else
@CorvyusMorte - :D I’d LOVE to be able to read your Spanish work, by the example of what you can do with English it must be quite something….if only i spoke spanish
Thankyou i’m glad you enjoy it, mostly I get these vauge concepts i really want to express and then just have a go and see what comes out, if my moods right it can be okay but i’m always very doubtful if i’ve even made sense, untill I get comments
@locomotiv - Yes I’ve really never tried writing anything before I found blogging, but it helps so much to have somewhere to explore such concepts and thoughts.
@wyckdstorm -Thanks
.I certianly don’t see myself as an artist either, but maybe you don’t have to be one to try and express that elusive concept.
@fabolousclown - Lol A good point well made ;P
@AdamsWomanFell - ThankYou
I’m always under the impression that I’m far more confusing than anything else, so it’s really nice to hear that sometimes I make sense!
HUGS
You stole my words right out of my mouth!
this was your best post yet. beautiful.
@RestlessButterfly - Hehe I thought they tasted nice
@somewhatabstractelf - Thank you, I really appreciate that
And welcome back! great new profile pic, lying on the floor again I see
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