April 9, 2011
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What….
……Am I doing? Writing a post where i try to answer as many what questions as i can think of.
……Do I want? Lots of thing if I think about it but nothing more than anything else.
……Do I Do? Almost nothing, but i’m sort of skilled in computers and basic website design and traffic generation.
……Is my purpose? I’m not sure I have one but if pressed i think spending my time creating a wonderful enviroment for children to grow up in would be the most purposeful thing to do with my time.
……Is the point? I honestly don’t know, everything i’ve ever done or thought about has exactly the same feeling of pointlessness as in nothing is actually going to be all that different from what i’ve got now so why change? So if there is a ‘point’ to anything either i’ve not seen it yet or it’s far more complex.
……Do I Like? Again it’s all very flexible and hard to pin down, but i can spend the most ammount of time on Computer Games, either because they are super addictive or i just like em lol
……Do i spend my time on? Usually very little, most days involve a late start, breakfast with an episode of somekind of TV show then maybe a walk depending on weather, then back maybe lunch and more TV, lots of just sitting doing nothing or talking, then in the evening either a film or games, dinner more games or continued film and bed usually quite late.
……Am I skilled in? Nothing to any degree, i’ve spent my time doing things but never really learning anything. Computers and software useage are the only things i could claim skill in.
……Is my Problem? I think i’m limited by Existential Nihilism, which is a fancy way of saying everythings the same so whats the point. I think things through before doing them and find that basically they are in no way different that my current experiance so i don’t bother.
……Do I love? My family, and when i get focused enough everything. With enough silence and peace you realise that everything is so beautiful you can’t help but fall in love with all reality.
……Do I think about? Ah well sadly most of my time is spent rather wastefully thinking about either mind games or just random cool scenes usually involving bullet time effects. Other than that i tend to think about whats going on in the current day, or what i want to do next.
……Will Happen in the future? Well i hope i’ll finally discover a way to earn money that needs little to no effort…otherwise i’ll dawdle untill events force me to take action.
……Is the answer? If i knew that i wouldn’t feel quite so frustrated with the endless questions.
……Time is it? 16:44 (4:44) time i was outside on this rather nice warmish day.
……Will i post about next? Errrm not sure but i’m hoping to have a short story to post soon, or maybe just some more random junk if i can come up with it.
……Do you think about this idea for a post? I found it annoying and somewhat smug…but it was quite interesting to see my own answers lol
Comments (10)
i like these posts, good things to ponder about and its nice to hear other people’s take on it! your point on existential nihilism is interesting, mayb because i’ve never heard of it before. but i’m definitely the opposite of that! the more random, the more worth doing. it makes life annoying for close people, but it makes me super happy.
Are you happy?
@suuperstar - :D “the more random, the more worth doing” sounds like a good phylosophy, maybe i’ll try that way of approching things.
And i’d imagine you’ve not heard of it because i just made it up lol, but it’s the best way of describing how i often feel.
@Days_likethis - I am, but i tend to feel frustrated and trapped when i let myself get down. It would just be nice to know what to do with my time.
@BFB1131 - wow u made that up?!? sounds so scientific LOL
I like posts like these. eProps for making up these questions
@jennylovve - Thanks Jen
@BFB1131 - Personally, I am convinced the only way to figure that out is by trying, trying lots of different things, meeting different people and living different lives.
I agree with superstar…I’m really digging the picture though
“I’m not sure I have one but if pressed i think spending my time creating a wonderful enviroment for children to grow up in would be the most purposeful thing to do with my time.”